Fuck Trust

Just tell me why you have to go around the world making things up, telling lies..

Tell me why you promise me things you knew you wouldn't kept, why you said you cared and didn't? There's this somethin call trust, and it's the first thing that FRIENDS have to have.. but for you it seems its better to make things created by you, then to tellin the truth that sooner or later can get to know.

I know this doesn't hurt to you, but for me is killing me like a sickness, I just wish that I could change my past, and that I haven't talked to you, that day, that moment, tht hour, that minute.. I regret now, knowing that I didn't want to.. This wounds you made me an hour ago, won't seem to heal, cause I open my heart to you, and it was like opening my heart to a destruction machine. Tears come down my face like razorblades come through my wrists.

You are just here to hurt and to play.. to enjoy and to "care"..

I wish I could hate you..

But I can't.

♣Let's play a game♠

♪ BrknSml ☼

I am Someone

[ I am someone, I walked past a dead face, even though the person was alive, I saw my eyes in the mirror and cried at the sight, I looked at a person I didn't know and I met a friend ]

[ I got heads to turn when I walked past, I learned a lot about myself when I lost a new friend, I cried every tear in my body when I thought about love ]

[ I ot hit bad then got back in the ring. I climbed a mountain of rocks and saw an eagle fly over-head, I heard terrible things about myselft when no one thought I was listening ]

[ I realized I was strong when I didn't cry when it hurt, I found out who I was when I was with someone else, I though I was lost forever, when a friend found me ]

[ I held a life in my hand, and it was my own, I was a pawn in someone else's game so I surrendered to a brook, I walked the fire line between surviving and not wanting to survive ]

[ I still am.. I am someone ]

Mis dudas existen

¿Quien nos dice que lo que estamos viendo es real y no una imagen creada por nuestro cerebro al entrar en contacto ciertos chispazos eléctricos producidos por un rayo de sol? ¿Quién nos dice que, lo que yo tengo es mas real que lo que tu puedes llegar a sentir? ¿Quién puedo decir que, la realidad no es más que un sinónimo de ficción? ¿Quién puede afirmar que la fealdad o la belleza existen? ¿Quién puede jugar con alguien sin sentirse alguna vez parte del juego de otros? ¿Quién puede herir a alguien sin perder un poquito de su propia humanidad? ¿Quién, dime quien, puede seguir el camino de otro toda su vida, aun a sabiendas de que el suyo propio permanece esperándole? ¿Quién puede decidir lo que es bueno o malo para alguien, cuando tiene sus manos abiertas a todo aquel que se las llene de riquezas? ¿Quién tiene el poder de decidir quien es apto y quien no? ¿Quién se tiene tan poca autoestima como para o desear mejorar? ¿Quién no desea ser feliz? ¿Quién puede ser tan cruel como para dañar aquello que ama? ¿Quién es capaz de todo por nada? ¿Quién, a pesar de todo, a pesar de todos, aun cree en su estrella? ¿Quién responderá todas mis preguntas?!

♥BrknSml♥

Phenomenon

If these walls could talk, you’d know my body is dead, my mind has been taken over, that’s why I am so scared of meeting you deeply, and to fall in love with you, come on it can happen.
I can’t control it, anger is making me sick, I’ve been left here on my own, into a deep hole, crawling, chained to a hate of some kind. If these walls could talk, you’d know about my fears, about all those nights I screamed and cried for help, abut my fallen tears.

You’d know about the demons haunting me at night, you’d be able to help me, keep my fire alright, but I think I’m the only one who can help myself from those monsters. Phenomenon.

It’s all in silence, all is dark and I hear a voice in my head telling me, to forget him, to let him go, because I’m going to hurt him, and I don’t want that... Right now I’m wonderless, I don’t know what to do, to say, to feel..

By: BrokenSmile
24/01/08.-

Commitement

This is a bleeding heart and an exhausted tongue laying it out there.. Dripping with brutal truth and honesty, Somestimes the people you hold so dearly in this life are the ones that you hurt the most, life is too short to keeo loved ones away.. too hold grudges, too judge someone by their looks, or age.. as humans we are interesting creatures, we are the only ones with the capacity to love someone genuinely, the willingness to put someone else before ourselves, and the commitement it takes to truly be with someone.. but sadly we also possess and innate propensity to betray and hurt the people most important to us.. we turn our backs on our friends, sometimes our own family, even our lovers, we say things we don't mean, and we do things we don't mean to do.. with so much going on at time, it's often hard to find the right way, the right things to say, the right way of doing things.. but the only thing we can do to get by is seize each and every day. we can't keep turning out backs trylu cherish in this life, because there truly is absolutely nothing worth regreting.. And certainly nothing going worth going over the deep end for.. even when we find ourselves in hell, we must breathe, we must take the time to let the dust settle.. and we must accept the events that transpire.. no matter how bad the sting, how hard the fall, or how severe the pain, there's always a way and reason to carry on.. in a harsh world like today, friend and family are all you have.. they are all you can count on.

Strings attached? xDD..

It's becoming more evident

Much more obvious to me

I thought much more of you

Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake

Letting myself think you cared

Was I just your marionette

With heartstrings open and bared

With me left here still thinking

What was false, what was true

So puzzling and so complex

I’m left to await another clue

On my heartstings you played

Each left with a loving memory

Yet I still have those questions

Do you ever think about me

I’m wondering why all the intrigue

Now why all of this mystery

Why am I left here hanging.

.-[BrokenSmile]-.

Broken Mirror

My reflection stares back from the broken mirror

Distorted pieces staring from shards of broken mirror

Wondering where these false images come from

I’ve lost myself deeply inside this broken mirror

Disillusioned with myself, finally seeing the truth

That hides within shattered images of broken mirror

One thousand eyes blink, with lies behind each one

Cast at me from the remnants of the broken mirror

Crooked smiles endlessly reflecting back in sadness

Captured is the deep despair by this broken mirror

Scattered about the floor inside each silver shard

My self has been captured into this broken mirror

[BrokenSmile][...]